| Hey everybody!! I know, i know, it has been a looonnggg time!! please don't yell at me ok? i Have no idea how long this post is gonna be or what it's gonna be about but if you care at all what's been going on with me, or what is gonna be happening, read on...........................
wow, june 1st, that was the last time i updated on here...if you can even call my last post an update. so much has happened since then. so much has changed.....i don't even know how deep to go, or where to start. You ever hear the saying, "when it rains, it pours?" well that was deffy my life the past month. Not all rain & storms, but kinda like the bad weather we were getting for awhile where we'd get rain, rain, rain, SUN, rain, rain,SUN...etc....and then you're left wondering if there even is a such thing as a time with more sunny days than rainy ones. well there is, (obviously;) and now in my life is the time where beneath all those rain clouds I'm seeing the silver lining. It seems like when things are good, they are so GOOD!! and then one thing changes, and that's it- everything does. Now i don't always mind change, if i can control it. But when changes hit and I have no idea what's happened or what's gonna happen, me no likey it. But that is where faith comes in....and trust. Trust in the One person that never changes. You know who,- God. My Jesus, ...i have no idea, literally, no idea, what i would do without Him, especially these last couple months. Sure there were times when i didn't feel like He was there, or if He was, then why he was letting so much crap happen, but as always, deep down, i know it's not God's fault people are so screwed up, or that bad things happen. And I know He's there. No matter what i feel, there's just a knowing,....when you have an unconditional love for somebody and they have an even deeper unconditional love for you it doesn't just go away....no matter what hard times come, your love doesn't change. Love is a choice right? So you choose to love, even when you or them is unloveable. And boy am I glad to have a love like that from a father, friend, savior, and so much more, cuz God knows I can be so unlovable...believe it or not So yeah, many things have been happening with life...a few of you know that me grandpa patrick is living with us now. we weren't at all sure how that would be. He has alot of health issues and is struggling with clinical depression, but we wanted him here. Out of all my grandparents, he is the one I was always the closest to. We would write letters back and forth and i could confide in him....but it's going good. It's so awesome to see him getting better. little by little. Even in the short month he's been here I can see i'm getting my grandpa back. my loving happy gramps Yay!! we also weren't sure how things were gonna be financially, what with my dad not having a job and all. Alot of you have been prayng and stuff and i thank you soooooo much for that. When my dad's unemployment ran out a few months ago, we were pretty scared and unsure of what that would mean. would we hafta move? again?? and where? what would we do? but in the way He always does, God provided. my dad still doesn't have a full time job, and he is still looking(so if you see anything- hint hint )but he has enough odd jobs and part time stuff that he's getting a pretty good income. and we're not moving!! hallelujah!!! in the 8 years we've lived here we've moved 7 times and it's really nice to just have somewhere we can fnally say is home- to stay. so yeah, God's way may not always be our way, but it's always the better way. and He's always there. There were a couple of you also praying for things at home dealing family issues....i wont go into any details but you know who you are when i say thank you. Things are better and once again, it's all God. In other news. I'm going to India in the fall!! If you know me at all, you prolly have heard me say that i wanna go there so bad. I've felt that God wanted me to, since i was like 9!! and it's finally happening...there's a funny story involving me missing me SAT date and all that good stuff as to how i'm now goin, but yeah, this fall i will be leaving for india with 6/7 other people from my church for 2 weeks!! yay!! I"m soooooooooooo EXCITED!!!!!   ..OK, OFF CLOUD 9 NOW....no really, when i first realized i missed my SAT test date, i freaked a lil, after all, that influenced all my college plans for the fall, etc...but then i realized that everything happens for a reason. my heart's desire was to go to India before school, but when my summer plans to go there fell through, i didn't think it'd be possible. But with God all things are possible. and He promises to give us our hearts desires, IF they are His. I guess India was His desrie for me too cuz I'M GOING!!!!! So i'll start school at LBC in the spring..at least that's the plan for now, every time i make a plan it ends up changing so i say forget that,...but tentatively(sp?) that's the plan. phew...............ok, aagh, gotta go now, work calls...i love you all mucho. I'll check back in tonite so I can go andread what's been going on in YOUR lives, In the meantime, have a fabtabulous day!! and leave me some
~*Britt*~ |
anyway i hope you all are doin well, i do have a myspace page that ya'll can check out if u wanna stay in touch: 
I dunno, gimme your thoughts. But anyway, my mind and life are a huge jumble of many thoughts and emotions and things right now, but i'm trying very hard to keep God in the center of those thoughts cuz only when He's the center do all the other things slowly unravel and even out, but yeah, God is good. all the time.
We're leaving friday and coming back sunday so i'm sure i'll have fun stories to share when i get back. Till then have a fabtabulous weekend, leave me love and SMILE , it looks good on ya
this was a pic taken when i went up to York Rescue Mission with my awesome yough group, Flipside. That's my beautiful friend Em and then there's me
